Do you really want to know how many boogers I flicked today?

It has been a while since I have even looked at this, yet alone written an entry.  There is no one reason why this has happened, but a mix of several events going on in my life and feelings that are rattling around in my brain.  Perhaps there is a chance I will explain them all here, however there is also a chance that I will decide not to discuss specific things.

Basically it comes down to having a lot of things taking place in my life at the moment.  I’m a bit on the tired side at the moment and when I do have a spare moment I either want to unwind and catch up on some of my shows, or I do not want to openly discuss what is going on in my head at the moment.

It would appear that I am having a crisis of faith with regard to my concept of blogging. I like to give the impression that I am an open book; that I am brave and willing to say whatever I am thinking.  But is it really appropriate to say everything that is going on in your life?  Isn’t it okay to keep a few things to yourself?  Does the world need to know every silly and mundane thing that is going on in your life?  Is it really necessary to confess every dark or personal thought that you have to anyone with a modem and the right key words in a search engine?

It most certainly isn’t for a lack of ideas for entries, but lately most of my ideas have fallen into three categories: complicated or time consuming, potential to open a Pandora’s Box of questions/concerns, or the potential to hurt someone’s feelings.

I have wanted to blog a lot more about music.  I want to give you all sorts of music lists and explain why you all should be listening to them.  But they all take time to research and time is something that I just haven’t had lately.

I have had a lot of other ideas of things to talk about that are going on in my life at the moment, but the problem is I do not know the end of the story yet.  So if I were to write about them, all it would do is cause my friends and family to be unnecessarily concerned for me, or even worse, ask me hundreds of questions of which I have no answers.

And the most important one for me is that I have had a few topics that I am pretty sure will hurt feelings if I were to write about them. The youth leadership organization I volunteer for often does an activity to see what color leader they all are.  I am most certainly a ‘Blue’ leader.  I like to make sure everyone is content, working together and enjoying themselves.  I want everyone to be happy; I especially do not like it when I do something that makes someone unhappy.  So it is especially hard for me to say something that is going to hurt someone’s feelings, especially if it is insignificant and does not need to be said.

So I have gone back and forth on whether or not I am going to write about some of the topics that fall in the last two categories.  I don’t know what the final answer will be, but I know that I will take the next month or so to do more blogs that do not fall under any of these categories in an effort to catch up on my goal for this year.

Until next we meet.