Hard to say goodbye

Yesterday I turned in all my materials to the Red Cross to take an extended leave of absence (likely permanent).  That was pretty hard . . .

Seven years ago I got it into my head that I was living a pretty self-centered life and first looked into joining a local DAT team for the Red Cross.  It has been an enriching experience that I will not soon forget and I appreciate all of the amazing people I was fortunate enough to meet there.  The Red Cross reminded me of the deep passion I had in myself in service to others.

I have learned a lot from the life and example of a great man that said it best in a quote I first heard almost 20 years ago.  ‘I don't know what your destiny will be, but one thing I know: the only ones among you who will be really happy are those who will have sought and found how to serve.’

'Choose your teachers well because that is your responsibility' -Andy Hersey.  Photo by Yousuf Karsh

  

I am grateful for the happiness that I have gained through my service in the Red Cross.  But lately I have felt overwhelmed and I feel like I might be losing myself in my service.  For someone who truly believes in the need for balance I sure do swing from one extreme to the other like a pendulum . . .

It was a lot more fun as a kid!

The need to regain balance in my life has bubbled to the surface and I feel the quality of my activities slipping. I wish I could have 10 more of me so that I can do everything that I want to accomplish.  The opposite reality, that I have limitations, is often hard to accept.  This has been a decision over a year in the making.

So now I must take a hard look at the direction my life is going, combined with a realistic look at my personal limitations, and close a meaningful chapter of my life.  That sucks.

Until next we meet.