I had a topic picked out for this blog from a recent Red
Cross experience, but it just doesn’t feel right to do at this time. I really
don’t want to write about anything right now and I am reconsidering whether
this is something I should even be doing with my time. I just feel really blah right now and these entries all feel trite, pompous and self-righteous
. . . ‘everyone pay attention to me! I’m
important and I have important things to say.’
What a load of crap!
I wish I could be the person I desperately try to put
forward all of the time, but sometimes I just can’t get that person to make an
appearance. I typically do not leave my
house when I get in this kind of funk to spare people from my negative attitude
. . . who am I kidding?! I just like
people to think that I always have it all together.
But I don’t . . . and I know that no one does, but that
still doesn’t stop me from wanting it. I
probably shouldn’t be posting this either.
But this is supposed to be documenting my thoughts, opinions and the
person I was for a moment in time. Well
today I feel like a crappy person with crappy thoughts and I would be
misrepresenting myself at this moment in time if I wrote about anything else.
Until next we meet.
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